Peanut Butter saved my life

So I never realized how versatile peanut butter is. Did you know you can eat it with just about anything? Currently, it is one of my staple foods. I'm not sure what I would do without it. Probably eat shoe leather.

I want to understand that I can't ever truly understand.

lectio divina (spiritual reading). Augustine describes it as having four parts.
1. read
2. meditate
3. rest in the sense of God's nearness
4. resolve to govern one's actions in light of new understanding

Augustine says "spiritual reading is an act of prayer". I would like to practice this form of prayer. It speaks to me in some way I don't quite understand.

"You cannot corrupt God with your sins. Even when you try and hurt him, instead you do horrible damage to your own soul." (paraphrased, Augustine)

I was thinking that it might be nice to leave this world at the same time as a friend. I mean, I can't wait to experience God's presence, but it might be a bit scary, and having a friend there would be comforting. Maybe "scary" is the wrong word. Maybe "overwhelming" is a better fit. I think I'll just be so overwhelmed by God's awesomeness that I'll freeze up and stutter a lot.

Now I need to unpack that thought... What do you mean, Ryan? Don't you experience God's presence now? How can a Christian not be in God's presence every moment of his life? I don't know. It's sort of a strange paradox. People always talk about going to heaven and finally talking with God face-to-face, but in the next breath they say how powerfully their life has changed since meeting Him. There must be something special here I am missing. Something about how blessed are the ones that believe without seeing. This is by no means a closed case. I need to let my mind and heart work on this one a little more.

I wonder... Will Jenna ever read these scribblings of mine?

A wiseman once said, "All my years are contained in God's today." (paraphrased, Augustine)